VENT

First, clearly I didn't do so well with the 30 days thing.  Oh well, what can ya do.  I blame school.  Things got crazy with school there for a while and nothing else was happening.  All school, all the time.

Today I took a friend to her u/s to find out the sex of her baby.  YAY!! She's having a healthy baby boy!! Everyone is having boys this year with the exception of just a couple girls.  I swear it's mostly boys though.  It's nuts!! It was really cool, her Doctor explained so much more than any American Doc has ever explained about an u/s I've ever been too.  Very in depth.

Right before we got there I got a text from Daniel informing me that someone* in his chain of command told him that from now on he was responsible for driving some OTHER random guy new guy to and from work.  Okay whatever.  He lives about 10 minutes out of the way but whatever, that's what "orders" are all about, you enlist, you get told what to do.  This someone* then proceeded to tell him that I would be responsible for driving this soldiers family around, wherever they need to go.  EXCUSE ME?!?

Now, I am a very nice person.  I have done just this for people that don't have their cars here yet or don't have their licenses my one neighbor who had surgery on her knee and can't drive her manual car.

BUT.

BUT...

I wasn't ordered to do so.  My husband wasn't ordered to tell me to do so.  Maybe there are marriages where this is normal, maybe there are chain of commands where this would be business as usual or whatever.  But this is not how my marriage or how my life will be working.  We have been here for 7 months and I have not met this someone*.  I haven't gotten a phone call.  Not that I'd expect to at all.  But that's all that a situation like this would require to be a go.  A little phone call maybe.  A simple, "Ms. Seely, would you mind..." would go a long way.

Last time I checked, I didn't enlist.  I am more than willing to help out where help is needed, especially in emergency situations.  During the last field exercise I took the above mentioned friend and her baby to the ER because he had a shockingly high fever.  That was the first time we met, she didn't have her license yet.  It was not an issue at all, I'd do it again in a heartbeat if she needed it, same with these people or anyone really.  But this whole situation makes me completely INSANE.

What it boils down to is respect.  I don't feel like I am being respected.  I feel like this someone* is throwing around his rank and maybe used to getting what he wants from whoever at any time because of his rank.  Maybe people are intimidated into doing what he wants...he's not that high ranking...like...like...well just not that high.  I'd respect his rank, I guess, if he respected me as a person, which he has proven that he doesn't.  I asked Danny for clarification on wording twice to make sure that my annoyance was justified.  I'm obviously not going to say anything to anyone unless need be, and I don't think that need will present itself, but...wow.  I feel extremely dehumanized.  Who the hell does he think he is? I know who he thinks he is...but he ain't my Daddy.

I just want to act 5 and say, "You're not the boss of me neiner neiner neiner" and slap him.

Of course I won't do that, because I'm 30 going on 40.  But I'm also not going to bow down to anyone.  And if he'd ever taken the time to meet me he'd know that.  All day I've been wandering around mumbling, "try to tell me what to do, psh"...most people that actually know me know that I'm not a rebel, exactly, just kind of...strong willed...very Aries-ish.  If you want me to do something make me feel needed or make me feel like it was my idea or chances are, it's not getting done.  Sometimes guilt works but usually it just pisses me off but straight up telling me to do it REALLY pisses me off.  And the absolute wrong way to go about doing something is trying to tell my husband to make me do something.  Bahahahaha...I am NOT the "to love and obey" kind of spouse.  I'm the Princess Diana kind of, leave out that obey and I'm in.  Obey is outdated and verging on abusive, I'm not property.  But I'm getting off on a tangent.  Did I mention Aries? The Ram? Yeah.  And I'm still pretty angry about this.  I'm not sure that this venting thing is really working.

Stupid someone*.  All this * is because I am protecting the jackassery.  Not innocent, no no.  And not stupid.  I'm sure he's a smart guy.  Maybe he's single.  Or maybe his wife is the obeying type.  Who knows.  Good for him if she is.  Poor Danny lol...poor poor Danny.

BAH.

I am going to watch more Pinky & Brain and drink fizzy water and mutter to myself "try to tell me what to do stupid son of a beetch who the hell does he think he is I don't need a new Daddy psh he can go..."

Goodnight!

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Day #2

Today's challenge is a picture of myself and the person that I have been the closest with the longest.  That's tricky.  There are a lot of people that I have been close with for a very long time.  But I'm going to have to stick with the one that I always turn to when I feel like I am going to break or when things are the best.

I still remember the night like it was yesterday even thought it was 1996...Korn had played so loud my ears were ringing.  I had just colored my hair and inky purple and my ears and sides of my face matched.  Luckily it was dark inside the Saltair.  After the show, Ian, Ryan and I were waiting outside for our ride when the guys spotted their friend, Chad.  They started talking to him.  Chad was there with his friend Alisha.  She and started talking.  The rest is history.

Yes, I met my BFF at a Korn concert.

30 by 30/day 1

Since I turned 30 today I decided to do the 30 day challenge even though pretty much everyone has past that but whatever, I decided to wait till now cause it just made sense.  So here goes.

 This is a picture of me, from today.  My smile is totally cheesy, forced and all.

Ten Facts-
1.  Utah is the Beehive State.  That's why my cake was shaped like a Beehive.  I'm perpetually homesick.
2.  My hair is longer right now than it has been in...since before my lung collapsed...whenever that was...2008? I always have VERY short hair.
3.  I am enrolled in 4 year college for the first time ever...at 30.  Better late than never.
4.  I am currently watching Without A Paddle for the first time ever.  Surprising.  It's hilarious.
5.  If someone would have told me how loud both Bulldogs and Great Danes snore I may have rethought at least one of the breeds...probably not.
6.  I am obsessed with shopping online.  I don't always buy the things I put into carts, it's like window shopping...only online.  It's because I can't actually go into Target anymore I guess.
7.  I have to write a 10 page paper in APA format in 7 days.  That's not too difficult I guess.  I should have been working on it in the past few weeks but my medication has been making me loopy it's been impossible to focus.  Ew.
8.  I also have finals coming the end of this month.  Double ew.
9.  I should be sleeping.  Fact.
10.  This is a LOT harder than I thought it would be.

I was prepared to write more of a blog but I was distracted by the movie and stuff and it's now almost 3am so I'm just going to have to end this and write day 2 today/tomorrow whatever.

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This weekend we went to Amberg.  I posted pics on my FB.  Everyone had been except me and Taylor so it was all new to us.  I learned that getting stuff for my pretend salon was EXPENSIVE.  But the Sally's here sells professional products, so that was nice.  I was able to get some TiGi stuff but they didn't have the color line, which wasn't super surprising.  I ended up getting X Pro brand stuff along with L'Oreal Maji colors.  TiGi used to use the L'Oreal line so I'm pretty familiar with it too.  I'm very excited about all of this though.  I figure I'll put my schooling to use.  It's not going to be a real salon, of course.  Just somewhere I can do my friends hair.  But long story short, it was $173.  Whoa.  I did get a big bucket of bleach and a ton of color.  I should only need to buy specific colors if someone wants something I don't have and maybe developer later.  So that's not bad at all.  I keep telling myself.  I love doing hair so I guess in reality it's not terrible.  It provides me the ability to do it.

We also stopped and got a new couch.  I'll post a pic down there at the bottom, along with an updated picture of Jax.  We just got new ones yesterday.  We also got word that we get to pick him up on the 5th of March.  A little bit later than I had initially thought but I think it's good that this particular kennel likes to keep the pups with their Mom's until they are 10 weeks old.  It gives them a better head start, I'm sure.  The woman I am dealing with is the Vice President of the Great Dane Kennel Club of Germany so I'm guessing she knows what she is doing.  I'm excited about the new couch, we made sure that we got one with room for Jax.  The salesman kept saying we could train him not to get onto the furniture when we were asking which couches were sturdy.  No thank you.  I want to cuddle with him all the time and I don't want to sit on the floor, so why should he.  I'm totally going to break this puppy but he's going to love me and be well behaved so it's okay.  I really hope he's like Ollie and I broke him so it should work.  I hope that he and Ollie are BFF's too, when we get back to the states.

I started school today.  I had two assignments.  I finished one.  They're due the 13th so I didn't even look at the second one.  I will.  I just wanted to give myself a minute.  I'm a little anxious.  About everything.  So it's best to take baby steps for me.  Once I get a little more into the swing of things I'll be more apt to get into the assignments right when they are posted.  And...honestly...once I actually enjoy the class I'm taking.  I'm not really into this class.  And I'm not really into Biology which is my next class.  But Philosophy will be wonderful, I know it.  I am so excited about my field of choice.  I am going to seriously enjoy every bit of this.  I know I'm old.  I understand that I waited so long because I just couldn't find time and I was just not medicated enough to be able to do it, I think.  Not well anyways.  But I also hadn't really developed my own personality.  I think had I got to college right out of highschool I probably would have chose something less suited for adult me.  I wanted to major in English and minor in French.  I still like both of those courses but...well...what exactly did I want to do with that? Cause there's not a lot that can be done.  Now I have developed to the point that I know exactly what interests me.  I know exactly who I want to be.  I want to help people, teenagers in particular.  I want them to see me and know I'm like them, just a person.  I'm not some fancy psychologist of social worker.  I'm a human with human flaws.  I really think I can connect and help them in ways that maybe other people couldn't.  Teenagers think I'm cool.  I have met a lot that are just immediately smitten with me.  Not in a "in love with" type of way but just in a "wow she's cool, when I grow up I can be like that!" I'm not saying these things to sound cocky because Lord knows, I'm not.  But from a teenage perspective I am pretty cool.  I have tattoos and current hair and I talk to them life people, not like children or as if they are lesser than me.  I really believe that I can make a difference and I am so excited to be able to try.  The major in Sociology is because it will help me understand different backgrounds.  Where people are coming from.  Religions, cultures, all of the things that make us who we are even if we don't want them to.  I was thinking of majoring in Psychology but I know that with a minor I'll have enough of what I need to do what I want.  I already understand teenage psychology a lot more than some.

So yes.  A new couch, a lot of hair color, school and a puppy.  Exploring! Always exploring.  Next weekend I am hoping for Bayreuth.  Cross fingers!! I know I've said that before but things keep coming up.  This time I really want to make it happen.  Danny wants to go to Nuremburg because there is a castle there.  I am all for castles but...Bayreuth has a haunted graveyard!!!

In other news, my dog ate my Kindle.  So I need to get a new one.  NEED.  Stella is the worst dog in the universe.  Never get an English Bulldog.  I repeat, English Bulldogs are EVIL.

I thought I would mention.  I have become obsessed with light blue nail polish.  I would like to find some sky blue polish.  I got a China Glaze color called For Audrey and I swear it is Tiffany blue but I want something lighter.  So just know that within a short while baby blue will be the color that everyone wants.  This is how it happens with me.  I'm finally just going to say it, predict it.  I have a knack.  I get obsessed with a color of an item and can't find it anywhere.  Within a short while it is EVERYWHERE and of course I don't want it anymore.  So there is my fashion related prophecy.

Alright, so here are my pictures.  Do enjoy!

None of the matching furniture, we chose a dark brown leather recliner.

Izaiah Jax Teller, 6 weeks old....SO CUTE!!

Jaxy poo.  Look at that wrinkly nose and those giant paws!

Amberg

 

 

 

Amberg, how cool is that??

So I guess that is all for today.  I need to do some wonderful online shopping, order a few things I can't find here.  Hope everyone has a lovely week!!

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books books books

I went to the library today.  Taylor got a Buffy book.  Danny sat down and read a magazine.  I wandered around the Mythology, Philosophy and Social Sciences section for quite a while.  I was looking for some books on religion.  They didn't have an actual religious section, which was kind of odd to me.  They had a HUGE Christian collection ranging from Catholicism to Methodist literature.  There were 3 books on Mormonism (including the Book Of Mormon).  There was one shelf devoted to Buddhism, Taoism, Hinduism.  A couple of shelves about Judaism.  And one shelf on Islam.  That was it.  Nothing else.  There was a small section of Sylvia Brown books and even smaller area on ghosts/paranormal anything.  I saw absolutely no books on Wicca.  Which is actually what I was looking for, specifically.  I was able to find a book on Crystals.  Which may be helpful, but probably not.  I got a book titled Illustrated Dictionary of Religions.  It looks fantastic.  It will contain more religions with hopefully good details.  I also got Mythology for Dummies and a book about dream interpretation.  Absolutely not what I was looking for.  I'm kind of bummed.  But I can do research on the net so it's alright I guess.  It's for a book, by the way.  I'm not converting.  Converting from what, I don't know.  But I'm not converting to Wicca.

Anyways.

Danny leaves for the field Monday.  It's going to be quiet around here.  I'm not looking forward to doing dishes.  I'm also bummed that he's leaving before pay day cause that means I have 1/2 a tank of gas in the Xterra and 3/4 in the Mazda.  I don't like not having full tanks.  Even though I don't go anywhere regularly.  I have a few things to do that week...so it's distressing.  Cause I'm easily stressed out.  He's only going to be gone 5 days, I act like it's two weeks.  I need to get on the registration so that this isn't an issue.  Can't do that until he returns.  Things like this irritate me.  I don't understand a gas rations card.  They allow you plenty.  More than enough even living way out here in the middle of nowhere.  Not to mention my name is on the stateside registration as well as the insurance.  It should be enough.  Oh well.  What can you do.

It's getting closer to time to start planning day trips.  I am heading out to Langen to pick up my puppy in about 2 weeks.  That's over near Frankfurt.  So I'd like to stop there and wander around some.  But around the beginning of March I would like to take another trip.  I just don't know where yet.  Somewhere puppy friendly, I think.  So we can take Jax.  Oh, and I want to go to Bayreuth.  To wander around the cemetery and check out some palaces, museums.  So maybe I'll plan that.

I am currently reading a Pretty Little Liars book.  It's interesting.  I read the first one and this is the 4th...so I'm lost.  But it's somethin'.  I am gonna go help do most of the dinner prep...then prepare for a bath complete with my book and some hot hot water cause baby it's cold outside.

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A Little History

We went to Vilseck on Saturday to check out some furniture.  Of course because it was the luck of Rachel, it was not to be.  They were closed for inventory (yes, on a Saturday).  Danny told me that the day I got my license they drove around a lot and happened to see a cemetery, right there on post.  So we decided to go check it out.  I love cemeteries, the older the better.  There is potential for some VERY old cemeteries in a land that has documented occupants before the 600's!

I got quite a few pictures.  It wasn't as old as I had hoped, 1930's was the earliest dates I saw but several didn't have dates.  Tragically (in my opinion) around here it seems that headstones get replaced.  It is a bummer cause I like the old ones...more character than these shiny black things.  But I digress.

So, it seems that long ago before Vilseck was a post the land (and that surrounding all of the Rose Barracks and Graf) were several small towns.  In the 1937-38 time frame the land was taken to house the German Army.  This caused the evacuation of the towns, Langenbruck was one of them.  In 1945 Vilseck was surrendered to the United States.  Post war, Vilseck the town integrated 5 villages into one community.  Vilseck the post, however, maintained some of the old Langenbruck relics.  The cemetery is the one we have found, I have determined if there is more to find or not yet.

I am sure you can find most of this at the Museum in Graf or by Wikipedia (which is where I got a good portion of my info) but I just wanted to give the basic run down of the area.  I feel like doing a little historical research of the places I visit is the best way to go, it's also a good learning experience for Taylor.  I'm not sure how much of it she actually pays attention to but it's a good base anyways.  (By the way, I live in a hamlet.  How cool is that?)

So here are my pictures...there aren't a ton, it's a small area.

And one more...

So, way back in 2000 I was managing a coffee shop. There were a whole bunch of guys that hung out at the shop. The above just happens to be two of them, the brothers Dusk1 and DJ Honna aka Ryan and Ben. I actually hired Ryan to work at the shop at one point and he went on to be a manager of another store. I always knew Ryan was a super talented artist, I bought two of his paintings and still proudly display them. But I didn't know about this Hip-Hop awesomeness until later, after we had moved. I am a huge fan. So I just wanted to share a little bit of great.